The Minstrel of the Dawn

On this night last year I had just learned that the Minstrel of the Dawn, Gordon Lightfoot, had moved down that Carefree Highway.

To say he was a musical influence on me is to say far too little. From Cotton Jenny to Rainy Day People, his music was the first I learned to play and mimic on the guitar, and I spun his tunes religiously throughout college as if he, Jim Croce, and Kenny Loggins were the only artists I knew.

I am the proud owner of almost every one of his albums, most on vinyl, and can sing most by heart front to back, anticipating the next song.

His voice was backwater silk. His lyrics were the best kind: complete stories in each song.

But what I was most impressed with was his humanity. He was not a perfect person. Who is? But even some of his songs, like Sundown and That’s What You Get for Lovin’ Me, he didn’t like to sing anymore in these last years because they brought up shameful memories for him. Even though they made him millions and were covered by everyone and their mother, for him they were past markers of mistakes, and he didn’t want to live there forever.

Who would?

I loved that about him.

Like that old ship he iconically sang into our memories when he gave homage to the Edmund Fitzgerald, teaching so many of us about a maritime sailing disaster that would have been lost to history books without him, his music and soul sings on as the vinyls keep spinning his masterful melodies.

We’ll continue to sound Old Dan’s Records.

Or as we call them, Gordo’s Gold.

I guess I’ll end by singing along with what I imagined him saying in those last breaths,

“From my head down to my shoes, carefree highway, let me slip away…slip away on you.”

The Saints of Pulse

Though not an official saint day, I would lobby hard for it to become one.

Today the church (should) honor the 49 pulses stopped too soon in the Pulse Nightclub shooting, an act that was both domestic terrorism and hate crime wrapped into one bloody night.

In the days following I remember giving blood, and upon entering the waiting room, finding a number of young adults in tears, waiting. A young woman walked up to the attendant, asking, “How old do you have to be to give? If I bring my mom in, can she sign for me? She’ll give too.”

So much blood. On the dance floor. On the hands of a country that refuses to adequately deal with the scourge of gun violence. In vials filled to help the 53 victims wounded in the act.

And especially now when it seems to be increasingly dangerous for LGBTQIA+ folks due to hateful legislation being passed around the country targeting their representation, their stories, their families, and their dignity, we need to hear the call of the Saints of Pulse and act. We must not remain silent.

Pride month is a month of celebration; yes. But even more so it is a protest against the powers and principalities that seek to harm the splendid diversity of humanity through intimidation, violence, and laws that target rather than protect.

The Saints of Pulse remind the church, and all of us, that until we tackle both the hate of the heart and the lack of regulations that allow people to wantonly act on that rage in mass murder, we’re not done.

We’re not done.

On Ash Wednesday

Today the church holds a somber fast traditionally known as Ash Wednesday which dates back to the 11th Century.

In a number of places in the Hebrew scriptures ashes were associated with penance and remorse. The books of Jonah, Amos, and Daniel all note the practice of heaping ashes upon your head as a outward display of how guilt and penitence feel inside.

As the church year begins to ponder the death of the Christ in anticipation for resurrection, a more introspective, prayerful, and yes, honest tone is kept. Ash Wednesday is the start of that long road to Calvary.

While some might consider the practice to be sad or even scary (after all, who likes considering their mortality?!), the wise mystics of all faiths remind us that we must ever keep death before our eyes if we are to truly live.

You cannot outrun mortality, Beloved.

You cannot out-diet, out-exercise, out-supplement, out-buy, or out-smart the quiet, pervasive truth that all creation is indeed, dust at our core (beautiful stardust, to be exact), and we will all one day return to that dust.

There is no out.

And yet, as is true with all paradox, there is a certain amount of freedom that comes with embracing this hard truth. Being Wonder Woman and Superman for too long weighs on us all, and we’re really not meant to fly anyway.

We’re meant to walk, which means we stumble like all walking beings do from time to time. The reality of our imperfection is, too, a gift of grace.

Plus, God loves things made out of dust.

Today we remember that.

Origin of Mardi Gras

After the church and the empire had joined hands, the rhythm of the church year was overlaid on the rhythm of the ancient celebrations of humans.

Ash Wednesday, the day of penitence, became a massive event; a “full Nineveh moment” in the face of the “holy” church’s Jonah proclamation: “Repent, lest ye be damned!”

Sackcloth. Ashes. Solemnity. That was the prescription. Interestingly enough, the diagnosis was proclaimed by the entity who also claimed to have the cure. Religion tends to do that…

But the people, used to more festive holidays, demanded some revelry before the fast. Intrinsic in our human bones, divorced of any religious pietistic profundity, we all know that a fast is seen best through the lens of a feast, and vice versa. A little bit of denial needs a little bit of indulgence to truly know what you’re missing, right?

And so Carnival was declared, a time to fatten our stomachs, our spirits, and our souls before the sobriety of Lent.

Masks were handed out so that, if you were in hiding for a crime, you could come out of your shelter and join in the fun. A hall pass of sorts. Acts of extreme gluttony are best done anonymously, right? On Carnival, everyone is criminal in some way, everyone is queen and king of their universe for just a bit.

The time for bending a knee will come; for sure. One day all masks fall.

But today is a day for reclining, gesticulation, and for pretending we don’t fear fat and sumptuousness, if only for a bit!

Prayer for Fat Tuesday

A prayer for Fat Tuesday:

“O Lord, refresh our sensibilities. Give us this day our daily taste. Restore to us soups that spoons will not sink in, and sauces which are never the same twice.

Raise up among us stews with more gravy than we have bread to blot it with, and casseroles that put starch and substance in our limp modernity. Take away our fear of fat, and make us glad of the oil which ran upon Aaron’s beard.

Give us pasta with a hundred fillings, and rice in a thousand variations.

Above all, give us grace to live as true folk–to fast till we come to a refreshed sense of what we have and then to dine gratefully on all that comes to hand.

Drive far from us, O Most Bountiful, all creatures of air and shadows; cast out demons the demons that possess us; deliver us from the fear of calories and the bondage of nutrition; and set us free once more in our own land, where we shall serve thee as thou has blessed us–with the dew of heaven, the fatness of earth, and plenty of corn and wine.

Amen.”

Our House

Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young was one of the first bands I ever fell in love with.

I blame my Pops. And I thank him for it.

David Crosby was not a perfect human. He had issues, and his history with the band bore them out.

But I hope none of us are remembered for the worst things we’ve done.

He was a musical genius in so many ways. And he made me look to the stars, to see the Southern Cross. And he made me Teach My Children Well (I think). And he made me look at Our House.

And I’m grateful for it.

For a Bit of Levity on the 12th Day of Christmas

On the 12th Day of Christmas I will now list for you the 12 most horrible, and obscure, Christmas songs…that I still love to listen to:

-“Our Love is Like a Holiday,” by Michael Bolton.

Terrible chorus:
“I’ve been to Paris, London, L.A.
I feel the tropical sun in my face
This Christmas we don’t need to get away
Cause our love is like a holiday”

-“Christmas Through Your Eyes,” by Gloria Estefan.

Notable lyrics: “I see the rain, you see the rainbow
Hiding in the clouds
Never afraid to let your love show
Won’t you show me how
Wanna learn how to believe again”

-“Jingle Bell Rock,” by Hall and Oats.

Please note: theirs is the worst version of this song…and the video is, literally, the worst. I’m obsessed.

-“8 Days of Christmas,” by Destiny’s Child.

This modern take on the 12 Days not only gets the number of days wrong, but also includes this gem: “On the eighth day of Christmas my baby gave to me/A pair of Chloe shades and a diamond belly ring”

-“Hard Candy Christmas,” by Dolly Parton.

This is my favorite on this list. Killer verse? “Hey, maybe I’ll learn to sew
Maybe I’ll just lie low
Maybe I’ll hit the bars
Maybe I’ll count the stars until dawn
Me, I will go on”

-“Go Power at Christmas Time,” by James Brown.

If you ever needed proof he was often high, look no further…

-“This Christmas (Could Be the One),” by Ledisi

Never heard of this one? Consider yourself amongst the lucky…

-“Christmas Wrapping,” by The Waitresses.

This mono-tone little ditty exemplifies all the reasons why you’ve never heard of this group.

-“Go Tell it on the Mountain,” by Andy Griffith.

This is normally a great song. You didn’t know Andy Griffith sings, you say? He doesn’t.

-“Christmases When You Were Mine,” by Taylor Swift.

Tay Tay, what are you doing?!

-“Christmas for You and Me,” by Brian McKnight and Vince Gill.

Looking for that special song that mentions cheese this Christmas? Here you go!
“It’s 11 o’clock and I’m almost home
I’m just calling to let you know
Leave on the light for me
Soon we’ll make us some brie”

-“Candy Cane Christmas,” by Darius Rucker.

Vomit along to these lyrics:
“Angels sittin’ high upon a tree
Watchin’ over presents patiently
Milk and cookies on a plate
Santa Clause is on his way
The kids should be fast asleep”

Can You See?

He: It’s a new year…so what? Why expect anything different?!


Him: Did everything today play out exactly like yesterday?


He: Well, no…


Him: And did you—think deeply now—learn anything new from yesterday?


He: Well, I guess so…


Him: Sounds like things are different already if you’re willing to see it.